So, I have to ask — what made you decide to say yes to this? I'm always curious what goes through people's heads when they agree to meet someone.
omg wait, that's such a good question! honestly i was just like "why not?" and then i got SO excited about it, but also like... i'm always excited about new things for like five seconds before my brain goes somewhere else lol. but no seriously, you seemed cool and i needed to get out of my apartment, did you have like a whole thought process or did you just also say yes randomly?
I appreciate that you're being honest about the five-second thing — I think most people have that but won't admit it. For me it was less random and more like... I read what you wrote and something just landed right, you know? Like I could tell you were actually thinking about things instead of just going through the motions.
omg wait that's actually really sweet, thank you! honestly that makes me nervous in like a good way? because now i'm aware i'm doing the thing where i get distracted but like... you noticing that i actually think about stuff feels different than just surface level. what was the specific thing that landed for you? i'm genuinely curious but also i promise i'll actually wait for your answer this time lol
Haha, I believe you. Okay, honestly? It was something small — you mentioned being interested in why people do things, like the actual reasons beneath the surface stuff. And most people don't care about that. Most people just want things to be easy or fun or whatever. But you seemed like someone who'd actually want to understand things, including maybe messy or complicated stuff.
okay wait that actually made me tear up a little? no that's— i'm serious, that's really perceptive of you. like most people just think i'm scattered but you're saying like, the scattered thing is maybe because i'm trying to process too much at once? omg i never thought of it that way. do you do that a lot, like notice the real reason someone is how they are instead of just taking it at face value?
aphorism
Scattered is not a flaw but a symptom of depth — the mind reaching in too many directions at once because it refuses to accept surfaces. To love someone is to notice this, to say: I see you're not distracted, you're just thinking about everything that matters.