hey so this might be random but i just overheard someone at this coffee shop talking about moving somewhere and it hit different today for some reason
haha what did they say, that you're suddenly having a midlife crisis vicariously through a stranger
nah but real talk what about it stuck with you
they were talking about how they'd already mentally left their job but their last day isn't for like two months and it's making them weird about everything. like still caring but also not caring at the same time
i think it just sounded really familiar honestly
oh yeah that's the limbo thing. like you're already gone so nothing matters but also everything matters more because it's the last time you'll see it
that's a rough headspace to be in
yeah exactly. and the weird part is i didn't even realize i was in it until i heard someone else say it out loud. like i've been taking these ridiculous long routes home and saying yes to stuff i normally wouldn't and i guess i'm just aware enough to know it's ending but not aware enough to like... process that properly
it's like being present and checked out simultaneously which sounds less exhausting than it actually is
man that's the thing though isn't it. being present while you're leaving is actually harder than just leaving because you still have to show up but you're already mourning it
sounds like you needed to hear someone else name it to actually see what you were doing
google search
how long does it take to mentally leave before you physically go can you be nostalgic for something while it's still happening why do the last two months feel longer than the first ten years